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    “Hollander?!” Rozanov exclaims, carefully dropping him back down.

    Shane doubles over, gasping and wheezing, hands clutching his ribs for dear life.

    “You’re fucking hurt,” Rozanov realizes, wide-eyed.

     

    (or, shane hides an injury in an attempt not to ruin his hookup with ilya)

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    02 Jul 2026

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    “Why are you out here alone?” Ilya asks. “Who left you here?”

    Hesitantly, Shane’s eyes cast up at the apartment building. Ilya follows his gaze, confused.

    “I’m sorry,” Shane says softly, “I went home with someone.”

    Ilya’s head snaps in his direction. “What?”

     

    -an episode 4 au where shane goes home with the bartender instead of rose, and it goes very, very poorly-

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    02 Jul 2026

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    LILY: bored of me already, Hollander? 

    LILY: is not nice to ignore me, sexy

    LILY: shane, seriously, are you ok?

    Another half hour passes, and he’s had enough. He calls in the next best reinforcement he can think of.

    Yuna Hollander answers on the second ring. “Hi sweetheart.”

    “Hey.” He tries to keep his voice even and calm, rather than panicked and uneasy, which is how he feels. “Have you heard from Shane?”

    “Shane? No, not since this morning. Why?”

    “I-” Ilya hesitates very briefly, sure suddenly that he is overreacting. How will it look to Shane’s mother, when he is home safe and sound, and his overly possessive boyfriend is calling every family member to check up on his location? 

    “Ilya.” Her voice grows more serious. “What’s going on?”

     

    --shane gets into a car crash and doesn't answer his phone- worried & protective ilya ensues!-

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    02 Jul 2026

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    “It’s not something we’ve discussed too much,” Shane admits reluctantly. “I mean, I think we talked about it once or twice, after being around Hayden’s kids. But…I was afraid…I don’t know if you want…” His sentence falters and he presses a hand to his stomach, inhaling slowly like he’s trying to soothe more nausea.

    It takes Ilya’s brain a few moments to process, to catch up, to piece together this half-filled puzzle Shane’s laying out for him.

    “We talked about having babies,” Ilya supplies, arching an eyebrow, “are you trying to say we are…having a baby?”

    Shane sucks in another slow, controlled breath. “Um, yeah. That’s what I’m trying to say.”

    “You are pregnant?”

    Wincing, the shorter man nods. “Mhm.”

     

    -or, vignettes of shane's unexpected pregnancy-

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    02 Jul 2026

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    It takes some time for Shane to notice.

    With three kids, they are busy, so it’s not surprising when Shane doesn’t observe at first. Shane and Ilya are both forty-five years old, and they have such full lives that sometimes time feels like a cruel joke. They’re busy, and always on the go, and blindingly happy.

    Shane tells himself this is why it takes him so long to realize. 

    That lately, Ilya’s gone quieter during their evening nighttime routine before bed. When they shower and brush their teeth, Shane meticulously flossing between each molar while Ilya sort of haphazardly takes care of his own business, that Ilya doesn’t joke or laugh as much as usual. When they shower, he lets Shane get out first every time, and spends a little extra moment to himself. That he doesn’t lean in to let Shane card his hands through his hair anymore, and he used to love the feeling of that.

     

    -- or, a study of aging beside the person you love, via hollanov--

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    30 Jun 2026