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    Rozanov: I want to coordinate a mass coming out for a bunch of MLH players. If we all come out at once, no one has to be first.

    Or, after his father's funeral Ilya decides to gather all the queer hockey players for a mass coming out.

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    03 Jul 2026

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    Shane Hollander works at a coffee shop, plays hockey, keeps his head down, and doesn’t ask questions he doesn’t need the answers to.

    So when a new regular starts showing up—quiet, watchful, Russian-accented, and conducting invitation-only meetings in the back—Shane notices. When that same man takes an unsettling interest in Shane’s closing shifts, his routines, and his safety, Shane does what feels sensible: he adjusts his behavior and keeps his mouth shut.

    Ilya Rozanov orders an Americano. He reads, but only in Russian. He worries when people work late alone.

    They are operating with very different definitions of danger.

    If he didn’t ask questions, he couldn’t be lied to.

    The rules were simple.

    1. Do not ask questions you don’t need the answer to.
    2. Do not share personal information freely.
    3. Do not be alone with Ilya Rozanov.
    4. Do not give him a reason to think you’re afraid.

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    03 Jul 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov, captain of the Boston Raiders, has a boyfriend. A definitely real, suspiciously (and boringly) handsome, conveniently offline, consistently unable to meet up in real life boyfriend.

    Who lives in Canada.

    Unfortunately for him, absolutely no one believes him.

    The more serious Ilya gets about his Totally Real Canadian Boyfriend™️, the more concerned his teammates become that someone either needs to call MTV and get him on the next episode of Catfish or that he's slowly losing his mind.

    Shane Hollander is, fortunately, very real, very sarcastic, and increasingly delighted that an entire NHL locker room seems to think that he's a government psyop to distract Ilya from his game.

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    03 Jul 2026

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    “The arena is just buzzing with nervous energy after that hit, ladies and gentlemen at home. And down on the ice, it looks like we have-...hold on…is that...

    Ilya Rozanov…crawling to Shane Hollander?”

    In which instead of Marleau, it is Ilya who crashes into Shane.

    The way they choose to deal with the fallout surprises them both.

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    03 Jul 2026

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    What happens when Shane leaves post tuna meltdown? Ilya starts writing letters to “Jane”.

    What happens when Ilya’s cleaner finds a stack of letters and sends them out?

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    02 Jul 2026

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    What if the video never leaked and their relationship was still a secret when Shane joined the Ottawa Centaurs? The team wait in anticipation for Rozanov's reaction to his career-long rival joining their team... but wait a minute, they're jumping into each other's arms, giggling like a couple of schoolgirls?

     

    Aka 5 times Ilya and Shane’s 'friendship' seems really gay and the 1 time everyone realises it’s been actually gay the whole time.

     

    Cue the Ottawa Centaurs being absolutely clueless, the Montreal Metros mourning the loss of their best player, and the Centaur WAG's (+Harris) being absolutely done with their ignorant partners.

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    02 Jul 2026

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    Shane is technically moving on.

    Objectively, he’s doing great. He has a stable relationship with James, an emotionally healthy businessman who texts him good morning every day, folds laundry correctly, and somehow makes stability feel both comforting and slightly alarming.

    The problem is that Shane has unfortunately never loved anything normally in his entire life, and definitely not Ilya, his ex-boyfriend, former secret, and current ongoing psychological condition.

    Shane and Ilya broke up after the Boxing Day fight and have both theoretically moved on. Now Ilya has Alice and Shane has James.

    Unfortunately, they are still completely in love with each other and handling that with the emotional maturity of two men who communicate primarily through hockey and prolonged eye contact.

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    Or basically Shane and Illya broke up after the Boxing Day fight and they "moved on" but not really because they physically and mentally cannot fully give themselves to other people.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    Shane was hurt and Ilya couldn’t be there with him. No one knew that he cared, that his boyfriend was in the hospital, not even Shane’s parents.

    OR: Yuna Hollander just wanted to grab some of Shane’s things from his apartment during his hospital stay. She didn't suspect she'd stumble across a home invasion, and that the perpetrator would be Ilya Rozanov.

    (Shane’s okay!)

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    30 Jun 2026

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    S. and Ivan are matched on Tinder, while they both use fake names for obvious reasons.

    At the same time Shane Hollander, Montreal Voyageurs captain has to work with an insufferable hockey player Ilya Rozanov, who becomes a nuisance from the first meeting.

    OR: Enemies in live, lovers at Tinder. But they don't know it, yet.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    Ilya goes to the hospital to visit Shane, but instead of catching him while he's alone, his parents are at his bedside. Shane, in his loopy state, says a bit too much about their relationship, leaving Ilya alone in dealing with the aftermath until Shane sobers up.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander is eighteen, second overall draft pick, and quietly, a father. He's learned to carry both versions of himself with practiced ease.

    Then there's Ilya Rozanov: first overall, unbothered, and already taking up more space in Shane's head than he has any right to.

    Their rivalry is the story everyone wants to tell. Shane is starting to suspect the real one is something else entirely.

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    28 Jun 2026

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    “I’m tired,” the little girl complains, skating from the group to hug Hollander’s knees.

    Hollander huffs a quiet laugh. “Grandma will be here soon,” he says, picking her up, sitting her perfectly on his hip. She lays her head on his shoulder, and they look so alike, it's startling.

    “Is that—Hollander,” Ilya says with disbelief. Hollander freezes, turning to look at Ilya. His brown eyes are wide, and he looks just as surprised as Ilya feels. “Is that your daughter?”
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    Shane abruptly quits hockey and disappears off the face of the earth without a trace. When Ilya moves to the Centaurs, the last person he expects to see is Shane teaching a bunch of kids how to skate and play hockey with his daughter in tow.

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    28 Jun 2026

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    “I can’t be pregnant”
    “You didn’t wear a condom.”
    “Yeah, but it wasn’t during my heat.”
    “Oh my god, Shane, you are so stupid.”

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    Shane does not understand omega physiology.

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    28 Jun 2026

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    After a rough start, Shane and Ilya are now in a happy relationship, surrounded by the support of their new teammates and family.

    Even if he doesn't want to admit it (and he won't) Shane loves to do the silly boyfriend stuff Ilya says "every couple in love with each other" do. This include synchronizing their phones, Shane had no idea that it also includes his health app, so when his heat was about to start Ilya takes the notification popping in his phone as a very tempting sign of the obvious...
    Shane wanted to carry Ilya's pups and he had let him know in a very subtle and Shane accurate way. As always, who was Ilya to say no to his omega?.
    So when Ilya started to make indirect suggestions about their future family and Shane seemed to not pick the clues... Well, it left Ilya in a very weird mood.

    Or...

    Shane doesn't know his phone synchronized his health app to Ilya's phone, and that it also started to send notifications about his heat periods and fertile days to his boyfriend, so when Ilya takes it as a sign he begins his plan to make it happen. Only to be left wondering why his omega (who absolutely want his pups) won't baby trap him.

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    28 Jun 2026

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    Three months before their first NHL game against each other, Ilya’s pheromones trigger Shane's presentation in the showers after the CCM shoot. In accompanying Shane through his heat, Ilya ends up imprinting on the omega, dulling the sweeter notes in his scent.

    Shane convinces himself that it’s just sex. The scenting reinforces the imprint and helps mask his omega pheromones, acting as the last line of defense if the patches, blockers, and pills ever fail. Okay, so what if the sex is good too. Whatever.

    Ilya gets an omega on his roster who he can be certain would never baby trap him. But as he gets attached to Shane, whose existence is still illegal in Russia, Shane’s overreliance on pills starts becoming too familiar…

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    28 Jun 2026

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    +1 (617) 555-9214
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    thinking about u

    +1 (857) 555-4473
    i’m guessing this wasn’t meant for me

    +1 (617) 555-9214
    fuck.

    or: Shane Hollander receives a thirst trap from an unknown number - and absolutely should not reply, especially considering how much he and Ilya Rozanov can’t stand each other in real life.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander ✅ @shanehollanderofficial 
    I’ve seen many publications over the years speculating on my own, and my husband’s, hockey stats and accolades in relation to our romantic relationship and when the public assumes it started. 

    We don’t owe this to anyone. But we’ve also been playing professional hockey for seventeen years and we’ve both run out of ahem, cares to give.

    On the right is a photograph from the behind the scenes of our joint CCM advertisement in July of 2010. This photo predates the hundreds of combined accomplishments listed on the left. 

    Oh, and it was also taken about six hours before our first kiss. 

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    or; a year from retirement and out of fucks to give, shane reveals their timeline to twitter in response to the latest speculatory article on their relationship. hollanovs across the world rejoice, centaurs celebrate their beloved dads, and former teammates share the not-so-subtle clues they missed the first time.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    “Rozanov,” Crowell begins, his voice finally dropping its casual flair. He snorts out something like a laugh. “Is Hollander blackmailing you?”

    “What?” Shane says to his muted phone at the same time Ilya says “Excuse me?”

    “A charity really?” Crowell huffs like this was a joke. Shane feels his blood go cold as he realizes this isn’t a friendly little meeting.
    Crowell lets out a soft hum, and Shane can hear his chair creek like he’s leaning forward. “Ilya level with me, you’re a bad person.”

    No. No! No!

    or: Crowell tells Ilya he can't start the Irina Foundation because it messes with his 'Bad Boy' persona. Too bad Shane Hollander is listening in on his phone and disagrees.

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    26 Jun 2026

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    “Honestly, dude, you’re fucking handling this like a champ.”
    He’s not. He’s handling it the way he has to, the only way there is to handle it. “Well, I am champ, so.”
    Marlow chuckles.
    He sounds like he’s about to say something else heartfelt and misinformed, so Ilya flicks on the radio.
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    Ilya gets outed fall 2014. Objectively it's good for gay hockey but it sure doesn't feel like it.

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    26 Jun 2026

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    “There is no one else!” He shouted as he let out a little sob.

    “It has always only ever been Jane!, I fucked around so much in my rookie years to stop myself from falling for-” No he couldn’t finish that sentence. He wasn’t even ready to admit that to himself sober, he could only commit to halfway admitting it when he was drunk out of his mind.

    “Since the moment I saw Jane in 2008 I knew I was in trouble. She yelled at me for smoking in a non-smoking area, shook my hand twice.” I Marlow looked at Ilya with pity as if to say 'so we are finally talking about this'?
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    OR: Ilya is torturing the Boston Bears/Raiders because of his breakup with Shane. His good friends take him to a bar to get him to move on (partially for their own sake) but it leads to Ilya revealing a little too much of his feelings.
    **Finished**

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    26 Jun 2026

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